Happy Confession Day

Confession Day is Wednesday, February 19th this year. It primarily refers to confessing your love for someone and appears to be linked to the other romantic-themed days celebrated in February.  Of course there's Valentine's Day on the 14th, Propose Day on the 8th, culminating with Break Up Day on the 21st (not to mention Hug, Kiss, and Slap Day on the 12th, 13th, and 15th respectively).
I'm choosing to celebrate Confess Day because of some new insight I've gained this year about confession. 
In his book Living Fearless, Jamie Winship explains that confession is not saying, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." Confession is when we tell the truth about what we think about God, ourselves, or others. When we come to God honestly with our fears, our doubts, and our anger he can begin the process that leads to our transformation. 
Once we've had the courage to tell the truth about ourselves, the key questions to ask God are, "What do you want me to know?" and then, "What do you want me to do?"
This week I've struggled with doubts that God has any control over the government systems that administer Mom's benefits. I have wrestled with fears about not being able to convince the people who are cogs in this machinery to do their jobs. I've been angry about what looks like ignorance or incompetence in the individuals I've spoken with.
When I tell God the truth about these things, I hear his gentle rebuke, "You keep forgetting that I own the universe." He fills me with courage to keep taking the next step and trust that he is in the mix. Time and time again I experience his deliverance in ways that feel like he's once again parting the Red Sea.

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